In the Spirit of Medicine: Suicide: The effect on those left behind
"One of the women at the bar told him, 'You Finlanders don't have the guts to shoot yourselves.' That was the last sentence he heard."
In all those tortured years, I could never bring myself to go there. I knew his grave was on a corner in the cemetery and I drove slowly until I finally found it. For some reason, I wasn't expecting to see my own name on the sunken tombstone, and it hit me hard. I got out of the car, knelt by his grave in the rain and wept for a very long time.